Dress: Anthropologie Fractal Medallion Maxi
Shoes: Steve Madden
Bracelet: The Limited
"Well [she] used to be somebody and now [she's] somebody else. Took apart [her] old life, left it on the shelf. [She's] gonna change, gonna change [her] ways. And it feels like [her] new life can start and it feels like heaven." - Noah and the Whale
Why is it we wake up some days feeling on top of the world and others on the bottom? After 2 days in the doldrums, I'm having an "on top of the world" day. Nothing's changed. My life is still a disaster, but today it seems like a beautiful disaster. I suppose I could have just been suffering from PMS or something. I did have weight gain and pizza face this week. Hormones, I tell ya, they're a bitch!
This is my outfit from 2 days ago. It was a rainy day to go along with my rainy attitude, hence, the indoor photos. So, this is a little peak into my apartment or the "sin den" as some like to call it. If some of you readers are still around from the old days, you will remember the post I did on my former home. I received rave reviews for the "stuff" I had collected and assembled in that home. Well the only said stuff in this apartment is a set of bedroom furniture, a couple of rugs, a chalkboard, and a TV. I had a particularly difficult time getting the chalkboard, but I stood firm and managed to get my grubby little hands on it in the end.
Basically, I had to start over with this place. It's amazing the things you take for granted until you don't have them anymore. Dishes were a big one. I found a beautiful set on the clearance aisle of Walmart for $19.99. Holla! I'm not being sarcastic people. They're green (of course) and look just as nice as some offerings I've seen at Crate and Barrel. I'll have to model my next outfit with the dishes just to prove it to you. I know, Walmart is evil. Target (pronouced Tarjeh) is where it's at, and I love me some Target as much as the next person, but Walmart has been good to me in my destitute state. I got an awesome computer desk for $70, and the painting of the birch trees in the background of these photos is also a Walmart special. If you can handle the panic attack inducing lights and frightening looking people, Walmart is not a bad place to find some household decorating gems. Sigh...now I'm going to be attacked by all the people who hate corporations. I'm sorry, but if the local establishments can't offer the prices Walmart can then I'm going to have to sell my soul to the devil and become a Walmart whore. Sad but true.
Some days the craziness of it all gets to me (Can you tell?). I've always lived my life nice and tidy and suddenly chaos is all around me. I'm 34 and after owning my own home (yes, I actually owned a home for a few years before moving into my dad's house), I'm renting an apartment again. I suppose some people would classify me as a loser, but in my opinion, winning is a state of mind. When it comes down to it, houses, cars, and furnishings - they're just stuff. What truly matters is how we live our lives. I've decided to live my life authentically even if that means I have less stuff and less people who like me. No amount of stuff can give me the feeling I have right now. I feel like a complete person for the first time ever and excited about the future of my new life.
Noah And The Whale - Life Is Life