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"Under my skin is the fire of rage and anger...As strong as you might be, you will burn in your fire." - Tinariwen (English Translation)
It's been a few days since I last posted. My old friend anxiety has decided to pay me another visit the past few days, so blogging has been the last thing on my mind. Just getting through each day has been a challenge. I've already missed a day and a half of work so far this week. Last night was especially rough. It's still amazing to me all the different symptoms anxiety can cause at one time. My back, stomach and bladder hurt. I felt nauseous. My body was shaking uncontrollably. My skin felt like it was on fire. As I lay awake in agony, I found myself getting very angry and frustrated.
I woke up this morning determined to have a better attitude. Getting angry with anxiety only fuels it's fire. I'm doing my best to let all the horrible pains and sensations wash over me as they come. I know if I'm patient they will pass given time. However, it's not easy to be patient when you're in pain. I'm struggling with it as I type this, but I know it's better to get up and do things rather than lie around feeling sorry for myself.
One of the things I've been doing to help me relax is meditation. I've been listening to this band Jerry's brother told me about named Tinariwen. Their music is very calming and just what I need right now. This particular song is my favorite and when I looked up the translated lyrics I was surprised to see that it speaks about not giving into your anger.
The big buzz around town is the Duke/Carolina basketball game tonight. I can say with certainty that I will not be stressing myself out by watching. I've got a date with my bed, my blanket, a heating pad, and some Tinariwen. I hope to be back tomorrow with a more cheerful post.
03 - Tinariwen - Chatma