Laundry List

Top: Anthropologie Printed Boy Tee

Jeans: Pilcro High-Waisted Flares

Shoes: Anthropologie Wishbone Wedges

"A laundry list of all my wrongs, but at the end of the day this is my beautiful disaster piece I've made." - John Mayer

Sometimes I get really overwhelmed by all the things wrong in my life. Most days I'm able to focus on the positives, but somedays it seems like my brain just wants to focus on the negatives. So, I've decided that when this happens I will make a laundry list of all the positives in my life in order to not get lost in my negative thoughts.

Yesterday's negativity was brought to me by the torture device known as the swimsuit. I've pretty much avoided swimsuits since having my last child. Let's just say after 3 kids, my stomach ain't what it used to be. I've avoided situations that require a swimsuit like the plague. However, I've decided that it is just plain sad that my children have not been to the beach in years. In fact, my poor daughter has never been. This is made even more sad by the fact that we live an hour away from the beach. Shame on me! So, I've decided to bite the bullet and purchase a swimsuit to wear to an impending trip to the beach. (Cue the scary music.)

The good news is it's a good time of the year to get a swimsuit on sale. The bad news is my options are very limited. I need a supportive top and belly coverage in a color that flatters my pale skin. I looked around and focused my search at J Crew. I thought I was limited to a one piece or a tankini. I hate both. Which is the lesser of two evils? It's hard to say. I feel so uncomfortable in one pieces, and just the name "tankini" makes me cringe. I decided to go with a one piece in a cute print. It arrived yesterday, and it was too big and the girls had absolutely no support. So, my search began again. After hours of searching in vain, I had a breakdown. I cried, cursed my body, and went to sleep with a crying headache.

A new day brought a new perspective. I decided that I was going to try to find a bikini that would work for me. I discovered a retro style high-waisted bikini bottom at J Crew that would do a good job of covering my stomach. I'm afraid it's going to look granny on me, but I decided to take the risk, because if it works, it could be the solution to all my swimsuit problems. My girls at work made me feel better by telling me that I could probably pull off the high-waisted look because I have really great legs. This reminded me of my list of positives. I added great legs to the list. Take that, flabby stomach! So, I placed an order for a polka dotted one. I'm not usually a polka dotted person, but I thought the polka dots gave it even more of that retro feel. Plus, my man said he thought I would look cute as a button in it. (Added "man" to the laundry list) I really hope the polka dots come through for me. Otherwise, I might be going to the beach in clothes.

This Will All Make Perfect Sense Someday - John Mayer