Feeling Grungy

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Blouse: Anthropologie Duexhill Cowlneck - Size 6
Skirt: Anthropologie Flowing Cables Skirt - Size Small
Sweater: J Crew Jackie Cardigan - Size Medium
Shoes: Anthropologie Raines Heels - Size 8.5

"When I get what I want, I never want it again." - Hole

After the disaster that was Wednesday night, Jerry and I decided to have a low key evening drinking at home, editing photos, and listening to music. Jerry's music is...let's just say...eclectic. I was scrolling through his Itunes trying to find something to listen to that wouldn't make me shoot myself (i.e. Jimmy Buffet or James Taylor) when I came across a blast from my past: Hole's album "Live Through This."

As the first song, Violet, started to play, I was instantly transported back in time to the summer of 1994. I was a shy, introverted 17-year-old who was working part-time at a sketchy motel to earn some spending cash. Every Friday when I would get off work, I would cash my pay check and drive to a mall far, far away to blow it all on clothes. Some things never change, huh? I think I went to pretty much every major mall in North Carolina at some point that summer. Anyway, my favorite part of those long driving trips was listening to music and this particular album was in high rotation. It summed up all the things I felt at that time but couldn't say. I love all the yelling in it. It feels good to yell the lyrics right along with Courtney. So, that's exactly what I did last night. I drank margaritas and sang/yelled every lyric to this whole album. I even did some head banging at one point. It was so fun! Surprisingly, I hadn't forgotten a word, and it still pretty much sums up how I feel. I especially love the part in "I Think That I Would Die" when she screams "F*** you!" Ah, it felt good to get out that aggression!

People love to tell me how immature I am. I know they mean it as an insult, but I take it as a compliment. Despite what some may think, I have "grown up", but part of that introverted 17-year-old is still inside of me. I haven't lost touch with that girl, and I think that's a good thing. She shows me how far I have come in life, she reminds me through my children's eyes what it's like to be a kid, and she lets me know it's okay to let loose sometimes even though I'm an (OMG) adult.

Oh, and to those people who think I'm so immature, I think you've been spending too much time in your own little version of "Olympia."

Hole - Violet



  1. You know there's a difference between immature and child-like or young at heart, right?

  2. Wow, you must have been itching to pull the trigger on this comment, Victoria. My post was barely up before I received it.

    While I could go into a deep discussion here about the differences between immature and child-like, I'll just go with this great diefinition from Urban Dictionary:

  3. Gorgeous outfit, Bonnie! Love the shoes and the tights especially! You've really pulled all the colors together well.

    And how can you not like Jimmy Buffet and James Taylor??? ;)- Glad you are having fun though! Cheers!

  4. I love that skirt! Now if only I could actually knit the cable stitch correctly....I have big goals in life, apparently. ;)

    My Dad's music collection does the same thing to me- sooo many bad oldies.

  5. I love that album too, I was in college when it came out and I got into the whole grunge scene. Feels good to let loose sometimes, we all need to. You look great by the way!

  6. I love Live Through This!!!

  7. Hi Bonnie, I've been following your blog for some time now. I like looking at how you put together outfits, some of them I like and some not so much, because they aren't my style...thats all. I honestly don't find it necessary to tell you what I like or don't like because quite frankly I don't give a rats ass. I just move on to the next fashion blog. I like that you're human and seem to make differnt choices than most. You don't sugar coat it. This is YOUR blog after all so you should be true. I appreciate it. What I can't understand is why some people are so miserable and unhappy that they have to criticize you for how you live your life. Yeah, we may not always agree with the choices people make....but as long as you're happy with your own choices in life, why the F would you care what choice a stranger makes if it dosnt affect your life in the least bit. Why put out negative energy? Be happy people! Anyway, long story short... I like your blog regardless.

  8. I loved that album too in high school! I love this outfit, the colors look great on you. Happy New Year!

  9. Don't ever lose touch with the young girl inside you.
    When I listen to some songs from Iron Maiden man I think back about all the crazy and fun things that with did with my childhood friends, I sing along the lyrics and play air guitar too! My husband finds it entertaining :]
    Listening to Hole - Malibu and Celebrity Skin also brings me good memories!!
    Oh and it's fun to be a bit immature sometimes. Life as grown up doesn't have to be 100% serious!


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