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"When I get what I want, I never want it again." - Hole
After the disaster that was Wednesday night, Jerry and I decided to have a low key evening drinking at home, editing photos, and listening to music. Jerry's music is...let's just say...eclectic. I was scrolling through his Itunes trying to find something to listen to that wouldn't make me shoot myself (i.e. Jimmy Buffet or James Taylor) when I came across a blast from my past: Hole's album "Live Through This."
As the first song, Violet, started to play, I was instantly transported back in time to the summer of 1994. I was a shy, introverted 17-year-old who was working part-time at a sketchy motel to earn some spending cash. Every Friday when I would get off work, I would cash my pay check and drive to a mall far, far away to blow it all on clothes. Some things never change, huh? I think I went to pretty much every major mall in North Carolina at some point that summer. Anyway, my favorite part of those long driving trips was listening to music and this particular album was in high rotation. It summed up all the things I felt at that time but couldn't say. I love all the yelling in it. It feels good to yell the lyrics right along with Courtney. So, that's exactly what I did last night. I drank margaritas and sang/yelled every lyric to this whole album. I even did some head banging at one point. It was so fun! Surprisingly, I hadn't forgotten a word, and it still pretty much sums up how I feel. I especially love the part in "I Think That I Would Die" when she screams "F*** you!" Ah, it felt good to get out that aggression!
People love to tell me how immature I am. I know they mean it as an insult, but I take it as a compliment. Despite what some may think, I have "grown up", but part of that introverted 17-year-old is still inside of me. I haven't lost touch with that girl, and I think that's a good thing. She shows me how far I have come in life, she reminds me through my children's eyes what it's like to be a kid, and she lets me know it's okay to let loose sometimes even though I'm an (OMG) adult.
Oh, and to those people who think I'm so immature, I think you've been spending too much time in your own little version of "Olympia."
Hole - Violet