"And I fall on my knees tell me how's the way to be
Tell me how's the way to go
Tell me all that I should know.
And I fall on my knees
Tell me how's the way to go
Tell me how's the way to be to evoke some empathy.
Danger will follow me now everywhere I go
Angels will call on me and take me to my home
Well this time I just want to be at home.
And I fall on my knees tell me how's the way to go
Tell me how's the way to see
Show me all that I could be.
And I fall on my knees tell me how's the way to be, yeah
Tell me how's the way to go
Tell me why I feel so low.
Angels will follow me now everywhere I go
Angels will call on me and take me to my home
Well these tired eyes
Just want to remain closed
I don't see clearly can't feel nothing no
Can't you hear me?"
- Lissie
There have been quite a few harsh comments lately based on the assumption that I have abandoned my kids to go seek out my happiness. I had hoped not to share the details of my separation on here, but I feel that I need to share a few of the details to defend myself and set the record straight. I have not abandoned my kids. Nothing could be further from the truth. In order to minimize the impact of the separation on the kids, my husband and I have agreed that the kids will stay in the house all the time. We have agreed on joint custody, so we alternate weeks staying with them in the house. When it's not my week, I stay in my apartment. In addition, my husband and I do homework with my boys each night. So, when it's not my week, I still see my kids for a little while each night when I go over to do homework. I pay my share of the bills around the house and the kid's expenses. After a few months of this, the kids will come and stay at my apartment with me during my week. This is not a nasty separation. My husband and I are amiable with each other. It's funny that my husband has been nicer to me than alot of the complete stangers that commented on my blog. Anyway, that's the situation.
Today was the start of my week at the house with the kids which is ironic considering it's Mother's Day. It's been a really great day. They each gave me their little handmade gifts they made for me at school. My oldest son's gift made me cry. I've attached a picture of it below. It was a box full of his hugs. I can't think of anything I need more right now.
Today's song is "Everywhere I Go" by Lissie. I'm kinda obsessed with Lissie right now. This song really speaks to me at this time in my life. My life is all about balance right now, and I'm trying to do my best in a bad but unavoidable situation. It's unavoidable because I refuse to stay in a marriage I'm not happy in. I tried for 10 years, so I feel I gave it a good effort. This song is for all the cynics out there telling me who I should be and which way I should go. Ultimately, for me, it comes down to those 3 little angels calling me home. I'll do what's best for them while still staying true to myself. No matter where I am they are with me everywhere I go.
Lissie - Everywhere I Go
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