Sandals: Urban Outfitters
"Bet he feels like an elephant shaking his big grey trunk for the hell of it." - Tame Impala
Fashion has been my passion for so long it's hard to remember a time when it didn't dominate my thoughts. Each day when I wake up one of the first things I think about is that day's outfit. Every time I get paid I eagerly log on to Anthropologie's website to pick out my next fashion acquisition. When any special event in my life draws near my biggest concern is always "What am I going to wear?"
Clearly, fashion plays a big part in my life. It could even be described as that dreaded of all things - an obsession. The truth is, we all have obsessions in some form or another. It seems like we, as human beings, constantly need something to focus on and to occupy our minds. Some of us choose things that are beneficial like exercise or eating healthy. While others choose things that aren't so beneficial like smoking or collecting useless knick-knacks. I have no problem with any of these activities. I've always been of the school of thought that people should do what makes them happy so long as they don't maliciously harm others. However, what tends to happen with some of these obsessions is that we get stuck in certain patterns of behavior and before we realize it, the things that used to make us happy no longer do. We just sort of do them for the hell of it.
I had this epiphany a couple of weeks ago after coming back from a shopping trip in Durham - shopping no longer makes me happy. There was a time when getting a new dress made me feel on top of the world, but lately I've just been feeling pretty blah about it. Maybe it's because I've accumulated so much shit now that I'm finally sick of it. Maybe I'm just getting older and my priorities are changing. Maybe I'm finally doing what so many people have told me to do and "grow up." Whatever the case, I'm evolving, and I'm discovering that the thing that makes me the happiest is seeing my children happy. It's corny and cliche', I know, but it's the way I feel. Don't get me wrong, this doesn't mean that I think I should never do anything for myself. I'm not going to turn into one of these self-sacrificing, "it's all about the precious children" kind of parents. I don't foresee myself suddenly ditching my Anthro duds in favor of a pair of old jogging pants and a dirty T-shirt. It just means that I want to stop the shopping for shopping's sake and maybe spend my excess income on some other things.
Given all this, I think it's safe to say that this blog will be evolving as well. It's been a weird fashion/lifestyle hybrid sort of blog for awhile now, but I think the lifestyle part of that is going to play a bigger role in the posts to come. I'm still planning to do fashion posts, but I'm going to throw some other topics into the mix as well. Nothing is changing really. I'm going to continue to do what I've always done - talk about what's currently on my mind. I just plan on sharing a bigger part of it.