"I felt the wind on my cheek coming down from the East and thought about how we are all as numerous as leaves on trees and maybe ours is the cause of all mankind: getting loved, make more, try to stay alive." - Rilo Kiley
This is my outfit from Monday. I took a sick day from work yesterday, and Jerry joined me at noon. We decided to watch a movie since I couldn't do much else in my miserable state. I've been wanting Jerry to see "Bridges of Madison County" for awhile now, and it just happened to be on TV yesterday. The last time that I watched this movie I was a teenager, so to say it had more of an impact on me this time around would be a bit of an understatement. By the end of the movie, I was sobbing like a baby, and Jerry was thoroughly depressed. It was like reliving our ordeal from last year all over again. It brought back all the heart wrenching emotions and internal struggles from that time in our lives. In other words, we were a complete mess, but it was some good therapy. We had a really good talk after it was over and enjoyed spending the rest of the day together.
"We are the choices we have made." If you haven't read the book or seen the movie, it's about a housewife who meets a photographer while her family is out of town. She connects with him on a level that she never has with another person. (What is it with photographers?) They fall madly in love and have a passionate affair over 4 days. The photographer wants her to run away with him, but she makes the difficult decision to stay with her family, thus sacrificing her own dreams for the sake of others. This is scarily close to what happened to me last year. However, I made a different choice. I made the choice that I felt in my heart was right for me, and I don't regret it.
I read and hear about so many people struggling in their marriages. Some choose to leave, and some stay. I respect both choices. I believe every situation is different and there is not one "right" choice. There are so many people and situations out there, and we each have to do what we feel is right for ourselves. Even though this housewife, this fictional character, made a different choice than me, I was struck by the advice she gave her own children. Ironically, they were the last lines of the movie: "Do what you have to to be happy in this life. There is so much beauty. Go well, my children.''
Rilo Kiley - More Adventurous