Thankful

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Jeans: AE Jeggings

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Earrings: Tree and Kimble

Necklace: Target

"I want the sun to hit my face through oak trees in the open lot. Forget about the things you want. Be thankful for what all you got." - Dan Auerbach

This time of year is detrimental to my budget. I find myself just wanting to buy, buy, buy! First of all, I made the mistake of going on Pottery Barn's website and finding all these bird ornaments that I now want so bad. I'm especially coveting the snowy owl Christmas tree topper that's sold out online. Of course,  I discovered I could get one for twice the original price on Ebay.  Luckily, I haven't become that desperate yet. 

Then, there's this whole Anthropologie sale fiasco. 25% off today then 50% off during "special hours" on Friday. Could you make it any more confusing and appealing at the same time, Anthro? Hell, I want to buy anything during the "special hours" just so I can feel special. I listed 2 dresses for sale yesterday for the sole purpose of gathering funds to feed my Anthropologie sale frenzy. It worked. I didn't even make it to the "special hours." I purchased a dress this morning that was quickly selling out. I think I managed to get the last one. Unless, I manage to make some more money, I won't be part of the special club come Friday. :-(

I feel really stressed out lately. Between worrying about money and wanting everything I see, I'm getting down right depressed. I thought this time of year was supposed to be fun. Truth is, it's so easy to get caught up in all the shopping hoopla. It's almost like a game these days. The fact that the deals are just not on Black Friday anymore adds even more variables to the equation. There's Pre-Black Friday and Cyber Monday, and God knows what else they'll come up with before Christmas gets here. I feel myself wanting to go crazy and turn into this horrible consumption monster.

Tonight, we went to my Aunt's house for Pre-Thanksgiving dinner. It's a tradition that's been in place long before I came into existence. We eat ham and collards and sit around catching up with family. I had such a good time. I was laughing so hard at one point that my stomach muscles were killing me. I could just feel all my stress melt away. My family, including my mother, was very welcoming and warm to Jerry. As I was hugging my Aunt on our way out the door, she whispered in my ear, "I really like your boyfriend. He's very nice." I realized that these are the moments of pure happiness, not the next purchase or the victory of acquiring something on super sale. Tonight, I'm thankful for what I've already got.