Top: Anthropologie Trifecta Tee
Cardigan: Urban Outfitters
Jeans: AE Jeggings
Boots: Frye Paige Tall Riding Boots
Coat: Anthropologie Vaterland Parka
"Feel that sun just hold you right, leave you burning down the night. Feel that wind lap up your soul if you cannot let it go. And when your thirst can come to me, I am a river for the sea. When you can hold me in your sway, I'll give myself away." - Blind Pilot
Sorry I've been MIA for the last few days. I've been trying to type this post up since Monday. I have written up a whole post, deleted everything, and started again 3 times. I chose 5 completely different pictures from this set when I first got started on this post. I have since deleted those and have added different ones several times now. Oh, and I've hated the way I've looked everyday this week, so I haven't taken any outfit pics since Friday. I guess to say I've been experiencing some self-loathing and indecisiveness is an understatement.
I've been trying to pinpoint exactly what has been causing all these negative thoughts and the simple answer is stress. I'm usually stressed out financially, but the Christmas season has definitely pumped up the volume on that issue. I've purchased most of the kids Christmas presents at this point, but it has left my finances in a sad state this week. I've been selling stuff on Ebay like a mad women lately. It seems like everywhere I turn I need to spend money on something. I have a Christmas party coming up tomorrow night and my hair looks like a grey-colored animal has crawled up in it and died. Thankfully, I've managed to make enough money on Ebay to pay for my dress and my hairdo.
Work has been crazy lately. I have been assigned like 50 projects in the last couple of days. Then, I was reading a certain website yesterday and saw where they were snarking on me about my looks again. After the day I had, it sucked to see that (Yes, I'm ugly and fat. You win. Congrats!), but more pressing issues quickly took it's place. My 7 year old had a temper tantrum of epic proportions last night over a Mario doll. Then, I took a look at his progress report. He had a B in math on his last report card but is now failing math the first period of this nine weeks. And the hits just keep on coming...
Today, at lunch, Jerry and I parked down by the river (that phrase always reminds me of Chris Farley's sketch from SNL). Anyway, we rolled the windows down and a cool breeze blew through the truck. It felt wonderful. He looked at me and said, "This is nice." I agreed. Then he said, "Life is good, isn't it?" I thought about it and realized yes, as a matter of fact, it is. I've been so busy focusing on all the negative that I forgot about all the positive things in my life. Our little rendezvous was just what I needed. Jerry always knows exactly what I need, because he's my soul mate and that's "how they do." He even tried to type my blog post up for me last night. This is what he wrote:
"Sorry I've been MIA the last few days. I've been busy with my challenging children. They're quite amazing. My first born is the perfect child. Does everything that's asked without question, yet has the insight to know things beyond his years. The second child is the challenge, and as such demands respect. He's beyond his years in so many ways it's hard to remember he's seven and has all the hurtles that life throws at you at that age to deal with. My youngest is demanding too, but can't be compared to her older brother. She's compassionate in her own way and doesn't have the skills he does when it comes to digging in. It's been a rewarding week, but challenging and time consuming."
So in love...Life is good.
Just One - Blind Pilot